Update

Tomorrow morning I will be having a D&C. I went to a pre-op apptointment today and I feel good about it. The horrible situation that my Dr. at home described (the reason he doesn't like to do D&C's, and the reason I was worried about it) is apparently VERY rare. Dr. Blackett, who is on call for my doctor here in Logan, is performing the procedure. I really liked her, so that is especially nice. She didn't try to talk me out of my decision; she fully supported it. She saw me during her lunch hour today, and was even willing to work around my hair appoinment! I felt like she really cared about what I was going through.

She did a third ultrasound, which showed that there WAS a baby...it just stopped growing at 6 weeks and 1 day. This is what happens when you have a "real" ultrasound in a "real" city with a "real" doctor. At home I couldn't get them to do a vaginal ultrasound, so things don't show up as well. All we could see was an empty sac. I was relieved to have one last ultrasound (by an OB/GYN) before going through with this.

Todd has to go out of town for work next week, so I am glad that this will all be over. I will be 10 weeks along tomorrow, and that is long enough to feel tired and pregnant when it's all in vain. Thank you to everyone who has called or e-mailed or commented about your experiences. It is so nice to have such a large support system.

I am now going to go gag on my toothbrush for the last time with this pregnancy, and hopefully get some sleep.